Good Morning my little girl. Wow, so much has been happening recently. I know you're looking over your little brother and you are helping to make him better so thank you for that. You would have been constantly caring for and making sure they were both okay if you were here and I know deep down it's no different, even though you are caring for them from heaven. Bea told me she saw you this morning. She shouted 'It's Darcy!' and pointed. I am so comforted by knowing they can see and feel you. We're now in your birthday month and it brings such a conflicted set of emotions. Firstly though I will always feel pride. Pride that you were mine, pride of the little girl you was, and pride for everything you are still achieving. But I also feel such sadness. You would have been turning 9 at the end of this month and it makes me so sad that I can't picture the 9 year old you would be. You will forever be to me, 6. And as the years go by and your age increases, mummy will find it harder and harder. How would you have been as a teenager going to secondary school for the first time? What hobbies and interests would you have had? Would you have had lots of friends at school or only a small tight circle of besties? Who could have been your first love? What would you have looked like on your wedding day? Would you have had children of your own? These questions make me sad because I know they are only guesses on my part, and I would do anything to have you back and get to find out the answers for real. 2 days before your birthday we also have our first Darcy Cup event. I always feel so much pressure before an event we put on for you because I just want it to be perfect, just like you was. I want you to be in the forefront of everyones minds and even for people that didn't know you to leave feeling like they did. That's my only job as your mummy now, to keep your memory alive, and i'm trying so hard. I love you to the moon and back gorgeous girl. Let's do this! Mummy xx