Happy birthday beautiful girl, I love you so much,

Happy 12th birthday, my little girl. I love you so very much xx

Happy 12th Birthday beautiful girl! I will forever be so proud of you Darcy, you truly are so special! I love and miss you so much!

Congratulations on becoming a big sister again, beautiful girl. We so wish you were here. Please continue to look after your brothers and sister, just like I know you have been doing. They love you so much. Missing you forever x

Happy 11th birthday little girl. I love you so much it hurts xxx

Happy birthday my special little lady xxxxxx

Missing you more than ever little girl x

I miss and love you so much beautiful girl! What I’d give to just be able to see you and talk to you again! I would give you the biggest hug and let you know how special you are to me! 💔

Thinking of you my special little lady ♥️

It's the holidays and I'm thinking about you as I know you would have loved being at home and spending lots of time with your little sister and brother. We would have got up to all kinds of fun and adventures. Bea is talking about you so much. She is so proud to be your little sister but she's getting very upset and confused that you can't be with her. Sometimes I don't know what to say to her because I don't know why you can't be with us either. It's just not fair. I love you to the moon and back.

It's a sunny day today, and I'm thinking about you, because you brightened every one of my days with your beautiful, beaming smile. How I wish you could be with us right now x

I love you so much x

Merry Christmas beautiful girl! 🎄 I can’t put into words how much I miss you, it still doesn’t feel right that you’re not here and I don’t think it ever will. Everyday is so hard but especially times like this, where I know you would of been so excited running downstairs with Bea and Arlo to see if Santa’s come. I am so grateful to have had so many Christmas mornings waking up with you because those memories will always live on with me. Seeing your face light up as you walked into the living room or seeing your full stocking at the end of the bed, made my day. That’s what it was all about. I love you so much Darcy ❤️

To my special little lady, missing you so much. Love you to the moon and back, nanny xxxxxx

I love you, my little girl. Thinking about you lots today xxxx

Missing you my big girl. Love you forever & a day xx

Good Morning my little girl. Wow, so much has been happening recently. I know you're looking over your little brother and you are helping to make him better so thank you for that. You would have been constantly caring for and making sure they were both okay if you were here and I know deep down it's no different, even though you are caring for them from heaven. Bea told me she saw you this morning. She shouted 'It's Darcy!' and pointed. I am so comforted by knowing they can see and feel you. We're now in your birthday month and it brings such a conflicted set of emotions. Firstly though I will always feel pride. Pride that you were mine, pride of the little girl you was, and pride for everything you are still achieving. But I also feel such sadness. You would have been turning 9 at the end of this month and it makes me so sad that I can't picture the 9 year old you would be. You will forever be to me, 6. And as the years go by and your age increases, mummy will find it harder and harder. How would you have been as a teenager going to secondary school for the first time? What hobbies and interests would you have had? Would you have had lots of friends at school or only a small tight circle of besties? Who could have been your first love? What would you have looked like on your wedding day? Would you have had children of your own? These questions make me sad because I know they are only guesses on my part, and I would do anything to have you back and get to find out the answers for real. 2 days before your birthday we also have our first Darcy Cup event. I always feel so much pressure before an event we put on for you because I just want it to be perfect, just like you was. I want you to be in the forefront of everyones minds and even for people that didn't know you to leave feeling like they did. That's my only job as your mummy now, to keep your memory alive, and i'm trying so hard. I love you to the moon and back gorgeous girl. Let's do this! Mummy xx

Good Morning beautiful girl! Today’s the day where I’m getting ready to come up and see you all tomorrow for your little brothers 1st birthday! Can you believe he’s 1 already, doesn’t the time fly! I’m so excited and every minute I spend up there is filled with pure happiness but even after 2 years I still expect to see your beautiful, smiley face open the front door. Life without you is so incredibly hard and there’s not a minute that goes by that I’m not thinking of you. At work I get some children your age in for their hair cut and they will sit there and tell me what they’ve done at school and what they’re learning and I love to hear all about it. Afterwards though I can’t help but then sit there and think what you’d be doing at school, what books you’d be reading, what your favourite song would be and what sort of films and tv shows would you watch. Maybe you’d like one of the new little mix songs or maybe your Daddy would of introduced you to another song that I’ve not heard of but you used to love. I loved seeing you sing and dance around the room with your beautiful smile that could brighten up anyone’s day! You are such an amazing, funny, clever and incredibly brave little girl and I hope you know how proud I was and still am of you, thank you for making me your Aunty! Love you so much beautiful girl ❤️ Aunty Ba xxx

Hi my darling girl, Your little brother turns 8 months tomorrow. Can you believe it? It's gone so quick. He's normally always asleep when I bring him down to see you but yesterday he was awake! He loved sitting infront of your photo and recognising you from photos at home. He had a little sit on your bench too, which he loved! Bea was of course the proud little sister showing you off to him. The sun was shining and we had a lovely time picking daisys for you and resting them on top of your headstone. Did you like them? Bea was placing them down so carefully. I saw on facebook today your school are holding a dress up day for comic relief. I couldn't help but smile as I know you would have been SO excited. I was trying to think of what you'd ask to dress up as. Who knows what you would have been into now. You would have been all grown up - but not too grown up for a cuddle! Bea loves dressing up in your old costumes. She was Elsa a few days ago and we watched it on tv too. Of course I had to call it 'Freezer!' Daddy and I have big plans for our next fundraiser. I think its going to be our best one yet. The support we've had already for it has been amazing. You are SO loved my darling. I can't wait for the events but I just wish you were there with us too. I spend all my time watching Bea and Arlo together and forever finding the space where you should be, and imagining what you'd be doing if you were there with them. It's not fair, and I'm so sorry that you're not here. I love you to the moon and back, Mummy xxxxx

Hello my gorgeous girl. Your 2 year anniversary has just been and gone. I still can't believe its true. It feels both a lifetime and yet only a moment ago since I last got to hold you. You're missed so so so very much, but I want you to be proud of how much of an impact you're still making on the world from up there. This weekend our #WalkForDarcy raised over a thousand pounds. Everyone still talks and thinks about you so often, perhaps thats why its so hard to believe you are actually gone. I love you to the moon and back my little girl. Forever and always, Mummy x

Happy New year Beautiful! I miss you so much. 2 years ago today, I came up to spend new year with you and we took our very last photo together, it’s one of my favourites. So many emotions hit me when I look at it, happiness because I was always so happy when I was with you and I’m grateful for every moment I got to spend with you but I can’t help the tears from coming because it reminds how great those few days were and I’d do anything to get that time back! I will never forget the day where we spent a whole day just up in your bedroom playing with all of your Christmas present including the Harry Potter game which you won several times, you were too good for me. The only time we left was when your Mummy called us down for lunch and dinner and she said it was like you had a friend round from school where we were playing all day but you really were my best friend and just small moments like that fill me with so much joy! You’ve taught me to never take anything for granted, the little moments are often one of the best. Memories I’ll hold forever. I love you so much. Aunty Ba 😘❤️ Xxx

Missing you so much my darling girl. Not a day goes by where I don't think about you. I love you to the moon and back x

❤️ 11th June 2016 ❤️ The day your Mummy and I did the sky dive for The Brompton! I can remember the day we decided to do the sky dive like it was yesterday. To begin with we was just going to do a half Marathon but when your Mummy emailed The Brompton Fountain to book us on, they replied telling us all the slots where taken but there was still spaces for THE SKYDIVE! We were out for lunch at the time and by the time I’d come back to the table from getting a drink, your Mummy booked us on 🙈. Once I’d got my head round it, I was so excited and then the work began trying to get those important donations for The Brompton but we did it! Waking up on this day four years ago the nerves started to really kick in but do you know what got me through, hearing when Mummy asked you what ‘Mummy and Aunty Ba’ were doing today and you shouted with joy “Jumping out of an aeroplane”. You were and always will be my inspiration In many ways but especially because of your bravery. No matter what battle came your way you was ready to fight it and with a big smile on your face! That’s why I knew there was no other way I was coming down from that sky but Jumping! When walking back from doing it, all I could see was your massive smile and your waving hands in the air. In that moment, it made it all so worthwhile! You was what got me through that day and I hope I’ve continued to make you proud! I hold this memory and every other memories you have ever given me, by being the amazing you, in my heart forever! Love you to the moon and Back!

Good morning beautiful! I hope you know that there is not a day that goes by that I am not thinking of you! I miss you so much. Love you to the moon and back. ❤️

missing you so much. love you lots grace ❤️

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you each and every day. I love and miss you to the moon and back. All my love, Mummy x x x x x

Hello Beautiful! It’s been 9 months today without you! My heart has broken more and more everyday since then.Today does mark another day without you, it also marks a day closer till I get to see you again. I’m 9 months closer and I can’t wait for that day! See you soon, love you to the moon and back! ❤️ Aunty Ba xx

Hello darling girl, Mummy's just been on to update your fundraising total after we held your charity day, The Darcy Cup and Family Fun Day 2019. I wish you could have seen it my darling, it was a huge success. Lots of your friends were there, along with your teachers from school and even people you had never met! They were all there to remember you and raise as much money for Martin House as we could. We had all of your favourite things, a bouncy castle, inflatable slide, stalls selling bows and raffles, glitter tattoos, face painting and lots more! And not forgetting the big football match, Team Ladybird vs Team Bee. It was a true family occasion with all of the children running on to the pitch for the last 5 mins all wearing their daddy's football shirts. You would have absolutely loved it. It wasn't the same without you but it wouldn't have happened without you either. You made it happen my big girl and thank you for holding out the rain for us too. I love and I miss you every minute of every day, but thank you for giving Daddy and I the strength and courage to do big things in your memory. I won't ever stop. All my love, Mummy x x x x

There’s one picture that I’ve been longing to receive from your mummy recently and that is the picture with you all dressed up in your school uniform, with your hair all neatly in plaits and you with your beaming smile ready to go into year 3! Oh I can still remember your first day of school like it was yesterday, you looked so little with your uniform that swamped you and your book bag that took over your whole body. I used to love the days when I could come with mummy to pick you up from school where you would bound out (maybe not as neatly as you went in) telling us what you had for dinner and what fun you had in the day. Just doesn’t feel right that isn’t happening anymore. I hope you’re having just as much fun up there now and I can’t wait for the day that you can tell me all about it. Love you always! Aunty Ba xxx

Happy 7th Birthday beautiful girl, I so wish you were here celebrating with us. I love you so very much. Love Mummy x x x x

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t miss you like crazy, so much that it hurts but I just have to remember that I will see you again, I just have to wait. 💔

6 months. How did we get here my precious girl? It doesn’t feel like it’s been 6 months since we had to say goodbye to you. I don’t even have the words to say how I’m feeling today but I know that you already know. You took my heart with you this day 6 months ago beautiful girl, and it will never be whole again. I wish you could see the love for you down here. I get messages almost daily of people that are missing you. Your friends, your family, your teachers at school. People that have briefly met you, people that spent a lot of time with you. You are SO loved, forever & always. My little girl, Darcy. But no one loves you as much as I do , now & forever, Mummy x

I'm missing you so much beautiful girl. Your headstone has arrived and it looks absolutely beautiful. I hope you like it. Mummy & daddy went away for the weekend and it was so nice to see your friends & family going down to visit you. There's so much love here for you , I hope you can see how missed you are from up there. We're really trying to get through each day as best we can without you, but its so hard. You were my right arm, I'm lost without you. I'm trying my hardest to be brave for Bea but I wish so badly things were different and you were here with us. There's nothing that I wouldn't give to have you back here where you belong. It's so hard to enjoy moments knowing you would have loved each and every day of your life on this earth. You were so appreciative of even the littlest of things. I didn't have to spend lots of money on fancy toys and big days out (although we did have lots of fun days out!) But you were just happy at home with your mummy & daddy and dreaming of the days where you could lay on the floor and play with your little sister. And you never got to do that. I'm so sorry Darcy. I love you to the moon & back, Mummy x

I wish I was able to just FaceTime you or book a train ticket to come see you. Seeing your smile and giving you a massive hug was enough to make me so happy and make everything every bad thought and feeling go away, you always knew how to make me smile. I just want to hear your voice, see your face and smile just one more time! Just get a chance to tell you how much I loved you! Oh I miss you so much beautiful girl! Love you forever! Aunty Ba ❤️ Xx

Father's Day is incomplete without you my darling girl. You are missing from every day but the special days are the worst. We are lost without you. There will forever be a Father's Day card from you every year, don't you worry my beautiful girl. You will forever be included in everything we do. As you are, and always will be, the centre of our world. We love you to the moon & back, our precious girl. Mummy & Daddy x x x x

I had my first dream of you since you were taken from me, last night. I had been wishing & willing for it to happen for a long time, just wanting to see your beautiful face, hear your voice and to see me & you back together again but I wasn't prepared for how I would feel after. Just empy. I just feel so empty Darcy. I got frustrated at my body for waking me up and ending the dream. The dream wasn't over, but your life shouldn't have been over the day you died either. So now I find myself wishing that I don't dream about you because in some small way I'm having to let you go over & and over again. But I don't want to never see you in my dreams, or for it to feel normal that you're alive, even if it is only when I sleep. It upset me because in my dream you were poorly. You wasn't feeling well and I was looking after you. I have realised recently this was our 'norm.' So much so that I didn't realise just how often you felt poorly. I'll look back on photos and say to daddy, 'Do you remember this day? She wasn't feeling well so we had to leave early.' or 'Do you remember this photo? She's smiling so big but she felt so rubbish that day.' It makes me so, so sad. So when you appeared in my dream and you wasn't your normal smily self, but sad & poorly, it broke my heart. I hope that's not how you felt, like you had to fake smiles. I hope you smiled because despite what you were going through, you were happy just to be around your family & friends and you enjoyed every second of life. Deep down I know this to be true, but on hard days I do wonder. Now, my only wish for you is that you are living life somewhere, the way you should have always. The way every child deserves to. Free from pain and worry, just smiles every moment of every day. I so wish I could be there too to enjoy it with you but I hope that one day I will be, and that will be the greatest day of my life. To be reunited with you and to have you jump into my arms once again. I love you so much, Mummy x

It’s been a while since I wrote to you Darcy, I’m sorry! You wouldn’t believe how big Bea is getting and how she is looking more like you every day. She has the same cheeky smile! I am one of the proudest Aunties! I just wish there was something I could do to bring you back so I can a have a massive hug with both of you together. I know you will forever look after your little sister though. Love you so much ❤️

I love you sweetheart, Mummy x

It's been 4 months today since you've been missing from my side. 4 months since we got to speak to each other. 4 months since we looked each other in the eye. 4 months since I felt your touch. 4 months since I've been happy. I was so so happy Darcy. I had everything I had ever wanted. Two beautiful children, the family we had been dreaming of for a very long time. The family you deserved. I don't understand why you had to be taken. I just want you back so bad Darcy, my life is miserable without you. Tomorrow is Aunty Michelle & Uncle Liam's wedding and you would have been so excited. You would have beamed the whole day through and definitely would have been the last one on the dance floor. You shouldn't have to miss out, you should be there. I should have two pretty little dresses hanging up on the cupboard door waiting to be put on tomorrow, not just one. I miss you so very much and it's definitely not getting any easier. How could it ever? My beautiful, brave, kind and gentle little girl, I love you and I really hope wherever you are that you are okay. Love always, Mummy x

Today is a real down day for me. Now and then I get little moments where I convince myself that this is all just one big nightmare and then reality hits me and it really hits me hard. There’s little things that I used to take for granted that I now miss so much, for example our FaceTimes where you used to tell me about how school was and what you had for lunch or shall I say dinner as you liked to correct me to the true northern ways. I miss you being distracted and telling me that you was going to go now after 10 minutes of ringing when I could of been on the phone for hours. I miss all the photos mummy used to send of your beautiful smile. I really miss you! If only I could go back in time and relive all these moments! Love you so much beautiful 💔

Today we’re getting ready and are excited for your Mummy, Daddy and Bea to come and stay with us this weekend but my heart breaks every time I remember that you won’t be there too! I used to love hearing your little knock on the door, saying we’re in ‘Nannys Town’ and hearing about all the little games you played on the way down. It will forever be hard living without you and my heart will always be broken but I promise to continue to make you proud to call me your Aunty. I Love you to the moon and back and I always will (Yes, I did just sing our song in my head) See you soon Darcy, love you! 💔

My Pickle...guess what aunty weezy got today. I got a new tattoo, just for you and bea. So whenever, wherever I am I can always look down and your with me. I hope you like it baby. I think you’d love it because it looks like a bracelet and the D’s on top because your the big sister. I miss you every day my beautiful niece but now I get to proudly show off my artwork to whoever will look at it and tell them all how proud i am of you and bea. Love you always pickle ❤️

Today marks 3 whole months since the day you were taken away from us. I cannot believe it has been that long. My whole being longs for you, from the minute I open my eyes in the morning to the minute they close again at night. Every second of every day you are thought of. I speak about you and say your name at every opportunity I can. I am not sad to speak of you, you are my child. My beautiful, brave, strong, clever daughter and I am so proud of everything you have and are continuing to achieve. I will speak about you until the day I die. Today I have added on the donations from One Stop to your page and there is still more to come! You have touched the whole community and I promise you .. this is not the end. Mummy and daddy's life goals are to make the world a better place in your memory, because that is what you would have done had you been around. You made my world a better place and I just wish I could hold you in my arms again. I love you to the moon and back, Forever Your Mummy xxxx

Today is a down day for me and daddy. We miss you darling, so so much. We are keeping busy making sure you still live on and we have so many ideas of things we can do in the next few months to keep your memory alive and to keep on helping other children - as I know you would want us to do that, but none of it makes living without you any easier. Not even by a little bit. Getting up in the morning and knowing we have to face another day without you is getting tougher each day. Next week will mark 3 long months without our best friend by our side. Your sister is growing day by day and it's just so heartbreaking that you don't get to be here to enjoy her. I wish we could have had more time. You deserved more time. I love you, more than anyone will ever know. Alway and forever, your mummy x

I used to love our old Saturday nights in. It would be our naughty night where we would order a takeaway and have a picnic in the living room. Me and you used to lay the blanket out and go and get all the knifes and forks ready. The food would come and we would be so excited having our picnic and without fail you’d end up putting your foot in something, normally the pizza. To finish our night we would put the music up as loud as we can (luckily we had no neighbours) and dance around the living room like no-one was watching. My favourite part would be being made to stand on our ‘stage’ which in fact was the fireplace. This certainly was not bigger not for me, you, Mummy and Nanny but We definitely had to try! I miss these nights like no other. Hope you’re dancing on your stage tonight beautiful ❤️

Today is my first Mother's Day without you. I am really struggling Darcy. The day would have been so perfect, any day with you was perfect to me. Together with Bea and Daddy, I have been down to see you and laid you out some fresh flowers. I hope you like them my darling. Bea's wearing her little ladybug top with bright red trousers just for you. I know it would have made you smile seeing her this morning. Keep looking down on her, as i know you are the proudest big sister up there in heaven. One more day down till we see each other again. Love always, Mummy x

I have updated the offline donations just now my darling. Look at what you've done already and you've only been away from us two months. I promise you, we will keep going in your memory. You are going to help so many people and touch so many lives. I love you to the moon and back x

How has it been 2 months today. It just didn’t seem right. There’s not a day that goes by that I’m not thinking of you or missing you. Life is just not the same without you beautiful and it never will be. Hope we’re making you proud though! ❤️

I miss you so much everyday but especially yesterday, my birthday. I always loved you FaceTiming singing Happy Birthday. You did love a birthday but I know you would of been dancing away up there. Mummy gave me your card and present and I loved it! Although the best present I will ever have is having you and Bea in my life. ❤️

Today is Aunty Ba's birthday. I'm so sorry you aren't here to celebrate it with everyone. I know how much you used to love other people's birthdays. Even more so than your own. I will never forget on Nanny's birthday when I asked you what you think she would like and you replied 'Batman Lego!' And guess what Nanny (aka you!) got ... A big box of Batman lego! I will add some money onto your page as your birthday present to Aunty Ba. Don't worry, Mummy will make sure to still pass on gifts from you. You're going to change the world my darling, one day at a time x

It’s been 1 whole month since your funeral but yet it feels like it was only yesterday. Time is flying by so quickly my beautiful girl. You’re still very much on everyone’s mind. Amyah came over to our house yesterday and straight away pointed upstairs and said ‘Darce !’ We miss you my darling, life just isn’t the same. It won’t ever be. I will always be missing my side kick x

Really missing you today my darling girl. It’s so difficult seeing children your age going to and from school past our house. That was my favourite time of day , picking you up from school. I was so excited to see you again and you would run out of those doors into my arms every day. I love you so much x

If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.

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